Tomorrow is day one of my Bikini Body Mommy 3.0 adventure..
I fail miserably at these programs.. they are too strict.. they deprive too much.. they work you too hard.. they don’t work you hard enough..
I have decided to do BBM 3.0 and have accountability partners.. I’m actually running this BBM journey with a few online friends.. I’ll be the one posting the videos and asking for updates from the people who have joined me..
I am hoping that since they will be depending on me to keep them motivated, that it means I will stay motivated myself..
I have decided that I will not be following her meal plan.. I will take the supplements that she has suggested and do her work outs.. I will be increasing my water intake as well.. but I will eat what I like and practice moderation.
Bright at early tomorrow morning I will weigh myself for the first time in over a month.. which will be horrifying.. and I will post it publicly which is even more horrifying..
I went though a depression for that month that I didn’t step on a scale.. and I am a comfort eater..so that doesn’t really bode well for me. I’m not sure what I weigh right now, but I can guarantee that it is more than 200 lbs so I am a bundle of nerves tonight because I know I will not be happy with what I see on the scale.
For now.. I will try not to let it get to me too much.. but seeing as I am writing about it.. it’s not easy to not think of.
I am not sure how regularly I will be posting about it here as I will be posting it in the womens group that I am in and posting it on Instagram.. But I will try to keep you updated.. My invisible reader.. who is so invisible that it doesn’t show in the stats that you have read my blog entries.
So.. Now I am down to one job.. And of course being a mom.. I am awake and wishing my stupid laundry card was working..
I put money on the laundry card and the machine gave me an error.. It took my money and didn’t add it to the card l.
I am going to go to the laundry room to check if the card has magically fixed itself and will let me do some laundry..
Phelps said they will fix is.. Swell.. I can’t wait for a month for them to finally mail me $50 via snail mail with an apology note..
This sucks.. All I want is to work.. Spend time with my family and get my god damn laundry..
Now I have a sitter who isn’t available before noon.. And no o e else available for the two days I need someone before noon..
Why isn’t going back to work easier than this?
I knew it wouldn’t be a cake walk.. But it has been an uphill battle since day one..
First I was hired before I find a sitter.. Then promised hours I never got.. Then got yelled at for not wanting the hours I didn’t ask for..
Is it terrible that I am complaining about too much work??
There are people out there unemployed and I am complaining about having two jobs and too much to do..
Perhaps I should be grateful..
What do you think?
I just got off work from my day shift job.. I have an hour at home before my evening shift job.. I tell you I can’t wait for my two weeks to be up already..
I only slept for 4 hours last night I think.. The baby didn’t want to sleep.. She hasn’t slept much today either.. She had a half an hour nap for grama today.. I hope she nap for her evening sitter.. Even if it means another long night for me.. She is cranky when she is sleep deprived..
Then again.. So am I.. Haha
Between my two jobs out in the big wide world & my full time job of mom-o-two at home.. I need a vacation..
I am somewhat relieved that I am taking some pressure off of my boyfriend though..
He may not show it.. But he has been under a lot of stress with me being home so long.
I really do have the best boyfriend ever..
Although not the most glamorous.. I am happy with the New job.. It is Monday to Friday so I will get the weekends to myself.. (pronounced: for the children)
Someday I will get a day off.. Just me.. And some friends.. And no kids.. To just be me.. But for now.. I will gladly take an hour long snuggle with the baby between shifts and a warm hug from the sweetest big sister I ever could have hoped for her..
Stay tuned for the next blog.. I have a question I could use advice on..
For now I wanna know what you are doing for thanksgiving weekend 🙂
Family? Friends? Quiet? Big? Not celebrating it? Celebrating next month?
I worked a 9 hour shift today.. I talked to my boss again once I got to work.. I gave her the hours I wanted at work.. She counter offered.. And between our hours.. I found the numbers (with the help of my boyfriend) that I would be making $5 a week.. After I pay for my sitter.. Before bills, transportation etc.. Definitely not enough to keep working there…
Now that my 9 hour shift is over.. I am sore all over.. I am sore in places I didn’t know were capable of being sore..
I was glad to get home and nurse my baby.. My pump was chewed thru thanks to my jealous cat.. I really wish he got along with her..
On a good note.. I won’t ever be too full again since I will be working 4 hour shifts from now on..
It is kind of a relief knowing that I will be working less hours a day.. I will have more time with my kids
I won’t enjoy the New job as much, but I will be making money.. Now to figure out how to make an extra $200 a month..
Any suggestions?? I would love a suggestion or two.. Something realistic though.. No get rich quick schemes..