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Bikini Body Mommy 3.0 Day 0

Tomorrow is day one of my Bikini Body Mommy 3.0 adventure..

I fail miserably at these programs.. they are too strict.. they deprive too much.. they work you too hard.. they don’t work you hard enough..

I have decided to do BBM 3.0 and have accountability partners.. I’m actually running this BBM journey with a few online friends.. I’ll be the one posting the videos and asking for updates from the people who have joined me..

I am hoping that since they will be depending on me to keep them motivated, that it means I will stay motivated myself..

I have decided that I will not be following her meal plan.. I will take the supplements that she has suggested and do her work outs.. I will be increasing my water intake as well.. but I will eat what I like and practice moderation.

Bright at early tomorrow morning I will weigh myself for the first time in over a month.. which will be horrifying.. and I will post it publicly  which is even more horrifying..

I went though a depression for that month that I didn’t step on a scale.. and I am a comfort eater..so that doesn’t really bode well for me. I’m not sure what I weigh right now, but I can guarantee that it is more than 200 lbs so I am a bundle of nerves tonight because I know I will not be happy with what I see on the scale.

For now.. I will try not to let it get to me too much.. but seeing as I am writing about it.. it’s not easy to not think of.

I am not sure how regularly I will be posting about it here as I will be posting it in the womens group that I am in and posting it on Instagram.. But I will try to keep you updated.. My invisible reader.. who is so invisible that it doesn’t show in the stats that you have read my blog entries.

I get by with a little help from my friends

I love the Beatles.. and I love The Wonder Years..

But this isn’t about either.. this is about me actually needing help..

Ever since I got cut back from 50 hours a week down to 15 it’s been a struggle.. Rent going up again isn’t helping… With full time we barely made ends meet as it was pre-rent hike…

Here is where I use emotional black mail to lure you into donating to my site.

I have 2 kids to take care of..
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They are my everything.. I love them dearly and cannot afford where I live anymore..
My issue is that I can’t afford moving expenses either.. So I’m asking for your help..

I’m looking for donations to help us move into a new place. We’ve put in our 2 months notice and have to be out New Years Eve.

Before you start asking what I’m doing to help myself I’ll tell you..

– I work part time at a place that gives tips.. I have stopped spending the tips.. they are going to my moving costs..
– I do secret shopping on the side of my part time work and am saving that money as well.. sadly that only pays $3-5 a job and it costs me $3+ just to go out to said locations
– I do Avon as well to earn extra money but am still struggling to make a profit with that little endeavor.. I know a profit can be made.. I did avon once before and managed to make a profit from it back then.. I only stopped because I had 2 other jobs at the time and chose to quit avon.
– I am selling as much of my stuff as I can before the move.. clothes, electronics, craft supplies, artwork.. anything that isn’t nailed down.. and probably even some stuff that is..

But I have debts to pay off.. I’ve used my credit cards to make ends meet and need to pay those off AND pay for my moving expenses..

Once I live in a cheaper place I will be able to get back on track.. and who knows.. I might get a second part time job in the area I will move to..

Right now I’m spending $1800 a month on rent, hydro & transportation and only making $2200 a month, which leaves me with $400 a month for Groceries, bills & emergency expenses.

I know that I can get a cheaper place, I’m currently looking at a place that is $1100 all inclusive. I’d be able to pay off my debts, save some money for the next move I end up doing, buy my kids nice things again and not kill myself trying to make ends meet for a little while.

As you can see, I have an actual plan to get back on my feet, this won’t be me every single week begging for a handout.

Please.. anything you could donate would be incredible I really would like to change my life and I believe this is the first step to doing so.

Just to make donating easier for you, my entire blog is a link to my donate page.

Thanks so much in advance, you have no idea how much your donation means to me.

Big Mama & family.
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Dear Rational Thought… I’m sorry

I am a rational person… I believe in science and ever growing knowledge through research, trial & error and a pure need to know the unknown. I have never been one to turn to the paranormal or religion to explain away things I don’t understand..

But there is one thing that I don’t understand.. And I am going to tell you about it right now. You can let me know your opinion good/bad/otherwise in the comments below:

I survived a house fire when I was 16.. 2nd, 3rd & borderline 4th degree burns all over my left leg & some 1st & 2nd on my right leg.

I woke up hearing my brother screaming at me to get up.. I mean screaming the panic in his voice shot me sitting straight up..

When I woke up I was surrounded by blackness & I couldn’t breathe… I looked down at my feet I saw the silhouette of flames around my feet.. Not the bright orange room with flames all around like you see in the movies. I didn’t know what to make of it at first.. until I realized.. it was a fire.. and I was sitting in it

I tore off the blankets, leapt off the bed and ran for the door. I collapsed right by my door and cried out in pain.. that is when my foster mom kicked the door in, grabbed me & dragged me out of the bedroom.

She told me to call 911 and evacuate the house while she tried to put the fire out. So I did.. I hopped downstairs and woke up the other foster kids and told them to get out of the house that it was on fire.

Went back upstairs and called 911 while my foster-siblings not believing me, followed me up the stairs to see what was going on. I told the operator to send a fire truck and they asked if we needed an ambulance and I kept saying “I don’t know if we do, mom they want to know if we meed an ambulance, I don’t know what to say”

She came into the kitchen and asked if my lungs hurt from smoke inhalation at all.. then looked down at my feet and realized that I had more than just smoke inhalation and took the phone out of my hand and told them to send an ambulance.

I stared at her but couldn’t focus on anything.. it was like I was watching her with tunnel vision.. apparently by this time shock was setting in because I was telling her I was alright and saying I just wanted to go back to bed.. I don’t remember that..

I remember being carried by fire fighters

I remember being asked if I knew where I lived.. a lot..

I remember them giving me T3’s when I got to the hospital..

I remember finding out I was allergic to Codeine that night as well when my skull hurt more than my legs did and my chest felt like it was imploding..

I remember being shoved down onto the hospital bed hard and a sharp pain in my thigh.. which I can only come to believe was epinephrine or adrenaline.

And I clearly remember hearing my brother screaming my name to wake me up and get me out of the house.. but the thing is.. he died 3 months earlier..

I would like to think of myself as a rational person.. but I honestly can’t explain why my brothers voice woke me up..

I am glad it did though because the firefighters & doctors said that judging by how bad my burns were.. I must have passed out from smoke inhalation at least once.

Question of the day:
What do you think really happened that night?

Early Weight Loss Entry

So I know I said I would write every 20th & 5th, but I just joined DietBet so I’m writing about that.

I just weighed myself this morning.. 203.5… … … Ouch I remember when 140 was a tragedy…

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Ahh… memories

So I figure.. after tearing apart the work place that I might as well take my measurements again since I’m doing the whole weight loss thing and the inches are more important to me personally anyway…

In 10 days I doubt I’ve made any difference.. but let’s see…

August 20th measurements:
Bust: 44″
Waist: 37″
Hips: 48″
Arms: 13.5″
Thighs: 30″
Weight: 200+lbs

August 30th measurements:
Bust: 44″
Waist: 37″
Hips: 47″
Arms: 13″
Thighs: 29.5″
Weight: 203.5lbs

Apparently 10 days did something.. that’s kinda awesome.. I can honestly say I’m happy now! Woo hoo!

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I don’t think I’ve changed my eating habits much, but I have meal planned.. skipped the carbs when the rest is filling.. and am making an effort to cut back the amount of white sugar in my diet.. which is saying a lot since I used to put 2 tsps per cup.. I’m down to 1.5tsps now.. 

That may not seem like much but factor in the fact that I drink 10 cups a day.. I’ve gone from 6 2/3 tbsp of sugar down to 5tbsp I’ve cut out 1 2/3 tbsp of sugar a day.. That is 36.5 less cups a year that I will no longer be consuming. 28,214 less calories a year..

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Can you tell I’m bored? Haha.. I’m doing math.. in a blog.. that no one reads..

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Anyways.. to sum things up

– I’ve lost 2 collective inches
– I don’t know how much weight I’ve lost
– I’ve joined Dietbet
– I’m bored

Question of the day:
Are you currently doing a weight loss thing? What is yours Paleo? Atkins? Noom? Tell me about it

Dedicated to all parents

Gotta admire my baby’s dedication..
When she was a newborn.. It could have been accidental..

At 3 months.. Just a comfort thing..

At 6 months.. Exploratory..

At 9 months.. Action/reaction discovery..

At 11 months old now.. She has grown so tall that it takes a real effort.. But she still does..

Does anyone know how to stop a baby from digging their toes in your bellybutton??

Can you get fired after you quit?

So I had 2 shifts next week at the place I gave my 2 weeks notice as of yesterday.. When I came in today there were no shifts by my name.. Just in time for thanksgiving weekend..

So.. The question is.. Do I get paid for thanksgiving still? Do I get to redeem the coupons I have earned and have yet to receive? What’s the deal?

I tried to get a hold of my boss to see.. She let it go to voicemail & didn’t return my call..

Are they really that mad at me? I tried to make it work with them.. I renegotiated a schedule with them.. It just didn’t make financial sense to stay.. I would end up in debt working for them.. I had to leave..

Now they won’t talk to me.. Cancelled my last shifts.. And haven’t let me know why.. Nor even let me know.. If I didn’t look at the schedule today I would have shown up ready for work for nothing..

I would have had my mother in law show up at my house for nothing.. She lives 40 minutes away..

Not cool..

I almost didn’t show up for my shift today.. I was feeling pretty ill this morning..

After the way they treated my customer last night I could have justifiably refused to anyway..

Meh.. Whatever.. The day is over.. It is best not to dwell.. I have two cute kids and an even cuter boyfriend to get home to…

This is a little embarrassing.. Okay.. A lot..

I am hoping other moms out there can give me a little advice..

My second pregnancy.. I took care of myself.. I ate healthy (most of the time anyway.. A pregnant woman needs her treats), I exercised regularly.. If I was too sore to walk.. I swam.. I relaxed and made time to pamper myself.. I did kegals every day.. I did everything “right”

I still dealt with LBL (light bladder leakage).. From 5 months pregnant through out my entire pregnancy.. I asked my midwife about it because I was concerned.. She told me not to worry.. With regular kegals it will go away on its own soon after birth..

What I would like to know ladies is what “soon” means..

My daughter is now 11 months old.. I am still doing kegals every single time I nurse her.. As soon as I wake up in the morning & before bed.. Though my boyfriend appreciates it.. It still isn’t helping with my LBL issue.. I don’t even feel it when it happens.. I just use the bathroom and can smell it on my pad when I do..

Is there anything else I can do to correct this?
Should I speak to a doctor?
Am I doomed to live like this for the rest of my life?
Someone out there please let me know I am not alone in this..

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