Tomorrow is day one of my Bikini Body Mommy 3.0 adventure..
I fail miserably at these programs.. they are too strict.. they deprive too much.. they work you too hard.. they don’t work you hard enough..
I have decided to do BBM 3.0 and have accountability partners.. I’m actually running this BBM journey with a few online friends.. I’ll be the one posting the videos and asking for updates from the people who have joined me..
I am hoping that since they will be depending on me to keep them motivated, that it means I will stay motivated myself..
I have decided that I will not be following her meal plan.. I will take the supplements that she has suggested and do her work outs.. I will be increasing my water intake as well.. but I will eat what I like and practice moderation.
Bright at early tomorrow morning I will weigh myself for the first time in over a month.. which will be horrifying.. and I will post it publicly which is even more horrifying..
I went though a depression for that month that I didn’t step on a scale.. and I am a comfort eater..so that doesn’t really bode well for me. I’m not sure what I weigh right now, but I can guarantee that it is more than 200 lbs so I am a bundle of nerves tonight because I know I will not be happy with what I see on the scale.
For now.. I will try not to let it get to me too much.. but seeing as I am writing about it.. it’s not easy to not think of.
I am not sure how regularly I will be posting about it here as I will be posting it in the womens group that I am in and posting it on Instagram.. But I will try to keep you updated.. My invisible reader.. who is so invisible that it doesn’t show in the stats that you have read my blog entries.
I am trying to lose weight since having the baby..
My issue is that my appetite hasn’t decreased since having the baby.. I am told this is because I am still nursing which takes a lot of energy.
Is it normal to still have a pregnancy appetite when breastfeeding or am I completely mental?
I am eating healthier and am now working on my feet 4 hours a day so I should be losing something.. I think I am maintaining my weight though..
None of my clothes fit differently and I am still having back issues..
My milk is also having issues.. Between working (which means nursing less) & being more active.. My milk production has slowed.. So I can’t really push myself because I worried that I will stop producing milk all together if I do..
And I am sure that the worry of my milk production isn’t helping.. Yet I can’t stop myself.. I am my own worst enemy..
I have been doing NOOM on my phone for a while and though I have been following it as best as I can, I am falling behind on tracking and logging everything..
Before I was employed I could focus 2 minutes to follow the instructions.. But now.. I don’t have time to think let alone log stuff..
That in itself is so demotivating..
Anyway.. I am off to work now.. I may blog later.. I may take a nap..
Stay tuned to find out!
I worked a 9 hour shift today.. I talked to my boss again once I got to work.. I gave her the hours I wanted at work.. She counter offered.. And between our hours.. I found the numbers (with the help of my boyfriend) that I would be making $5 a week.. After I pay for my sitter.. Before bills, transportation etc.. Definitely not enough to keep working there…
Now that my 9 hour shift is over.. I am sore all over.. I am sore in places I didn’t know were capable of being sore..
I was glad to get home and nurse my baby.. My pump was chewed thru thanks to my jealous cat.. I really wish he got along with her..
On a good note.. I won’t ever be too full again since I will be working 4 hour shifts from now on..
It is kind of a relief knowing that I will be working less hours a day.. I will have more time with my kids
I won’t enjoy the New job as much, but I will be making money.. Now to figure out how to make an extra $200 a month..
Any suggestions?? I would love a suggestion or two.. Something realistic though.. No get rich quick schemes..