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Bikini Body Mommy 3.0 Day 0

Tomorrow is day one of my Bikini Body Mommy 3.0 adventure..

I fail miserably at these programs.. they are too strict.. they deprive too much.. they work you too hard.. they don’t work you hard enough..

I have decided to do BBM 3.0 and have accountability partners.. I’m actually running this BBM journey with a few online friends.. I’ll be the one posting the videos and asking for updates from the people who have joined me..

I am hoping that since they will be depending on me to keep them motivated, that it means I will stay motivated myself..

I have decided that I will not be following her meal plan.. I will take the supplements that she has suggested and do her work outs.. I will be increasing my water intake as well.. but I will eat what I like and practice moderation.

Bright at early tomorrow morning I will weigh myself for the first time in over a month.. which will be horrifying.. and I will post it publicly  which is even more horrifying..

I went though a depression for that month that I didn’t step on a scale.. and I am a comfort eater..so that doesn’t really bode well for me. I’m not sure what I weigh right now, but I can guarantee that it is more than 200 lbs so I am a bundle of nerves tonight because I know I will not be happy with what I see on the scale.

For now.. I will try not to let it get to me too much.. but seeing as I am writing about it.. it’s not easy to not think of.

I am not sure how regularly I will be posting about it here as I will be posting it in the womens group that I am in and posting it on Instagram.. But I will try to keep you updated.. My invisible reader.. who is so invisible that it doesn’t show in the stats that you have read my blog entries.

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I get by with a little help from my friends

I love the Beatles.. and I love The Wonder Years..

But this isn’t about either.. this is about me actually needing help..

Ever since I got cut back from 50 hours a week down to 15 it’s been a struggle.. Rent going up again isn’t helping… With full time we barely made ends meet as it was pre-rent hike…

Here is where I use emotional black mail to lure you into donating to my site.

I have 2 kids to take care of..
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They are my everything.. I love them dearly and cannot afford where I live anymore..
My issue is that I can’t afford moving expenses either.. So I’m asking for your help..

I’m looking for donations to help us move into a new place. We’ve put in our 2 months notice and have to be out New Years Eve.

Before you start asking what I’m doing to help myself I’ll tell you..

– I work part time at a place that gives tips.. I have stopped spending the tips.. they are going to my moving costs..
– I do secret shopping on the side of my part time work and am saving that money as well.. sadly that only pays $3-5 a job and it costs me $3+ just to go out to said locations
– I do Avon as well to earn extra money but am still struggling to make a profit with that little endeavor.. I know a profit can be made.. I did avon once before and managed to make a profit from it back then.. I only stopped because I had 2 other jobs at the time and chose to quit avon.
– I am selling as much of my stuff as I can before the move.. clothes, electronics, craft supplies, artwork.. anything that isn’t nailed down.. and probably even some stuff that is..

But I have debts to pay off.. I’ve used my credit cards to make ends meet and need to pay those off AND pay for my moving expenses..

Once I live in a cheaper place I will be able to get back on track.. and who knows.. I might get a second part time job in the area I will move to..

Right now I’m spending $1800 a month on rent, hydro & transportation and only making $2200 a month, which leaves me with $400 a month for Groceries, bills & emergency expenses.

I know that I can get a cheaper place, I’m currently looking at a place that is $1100 all inclusive. I’d be able to pay off my debts, save some money for the next move I end up doing, buy my kids nice things again and not kill myself trying to make ends meet for a little while.

As you can see, I have an actual plan to get back on my feet, this won’t be me every single week begging for a handout.

Please.. anything you could donate would be incredible I really would like to change my life and I believe this is the first step to doing so.

Just to make donating easier for you, my entire blog is a link to my donate page.

Thanks so much in advance, you have no idea how much your donation means to me.

Big Mama & family.
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There is always next year?

I have been having a “it must be just one of those days” day for 6 says in a row now..

Friday: I missed Kaylees one year checkup & shots.. I kept picturing my baby crying with no mommy to soothe her breaking heart

*Sigh* it is just one of those days..

Saturday & Sunday: A very upset baby was suffering from the side effects of her immunizations.. She was being very clingy and needy which would be fine except that my other baby came home from school with head lice..

With all that, you really can’t expect to have a good weekend..

Monday: I was suppose to be enjoying a day off, instead I was keeping Sarah home from school to finish cleaning her head while the boyfriend went to work and I had to listen to the baby cry because all she wanted was to snuggle and I couldn’t have her near me because I had her sister sitting I’m front of me with live eggs & lice in her hair..

Crap right? It is just another over of those days..

Tuesday: I went to work on Monday mode.. I got everything ready with time to spare.. Then realized that I set out the wrong food. I did the Monday prep with the Monday food on a Tuesday.. What a waste of time & food..

It is looking like those days are contagious on each other..

Wednesday: I was determined to have a better day.. I got out of bed half an hour early.. Thought that grabbing a drink before going to work would help wake me up.. I tossed my uniform shirt on the counter.. Grabbed a drink, turned around to grab my shirt only to see it sitting in dirty water in sink

I spent the first 15 minutes of my shift in the bathroom using the hand dryer to dry my shirt..

When am I going to catch a break?

Thursday: Just when I think my week can’t possibly get any worse.. I am up half the night with a baby who just won’t sleep.. Until about 4am.. I finally fall asleep with her.. Then I wake up to a baby nudging me for a morning feed.. I sleepily snuggle her and grab my phone to see how much time I have before my alarm clock goes off..

I slept through it.. I am now 25 minutes late for work.. Laying in bed.. No shower.. Not dressed.. Crap!

How the hell have I had 6 bad days in a row?!?!

As a customer said to me today.. There is always next year…

Man.. I am glad that tomorrow is my last days of full time hours.. The weekend can’t come soon enough..

You are no longer a NOOM goddess

I am trying to lose weight since having the baby..

My issue is that my appetite hasn’t decreased since having the baby.. I am told this is because I am still nursing which takes a lot of energy.

Is it normal to still have a pregnancy appetite when breastfeeding or am I completely mental?

I am eating healthier and am now working on my feet 4 hours a day so I should be losing something.. I think I am maintaining my weight though..

None of my clothes fit differently and I am still having back issues..

My milk is also having issues.. Between working (which means nursing less) & being more active.. My milk production has slowed.. So I can’t really push myself because I  worried that I will stop producing milk all together if I do..

And I am sure that the worry of my milk production isn’t helping.. Yet I can’t stop myself.. I am my own worst enemy..

I have been doing NOOM on my phone for a while and though I have been following it as best as I can, I am falling behind on tracking and logging everything..

Before I was employed I could focus 2 minutes to follow the instructions.. But now.. I don’t have time to think let alone log stuff..

That in itself is so demotivating..

Anyway.. I am off to work now.. I may blog later.. I may take a nap..

Stay tuned to find out!

Oh dear.. It must be Monday..

So.. I wake up.. Thinking damn.. I don’t wanna wake up.. I get ready to go out early so I can bring the baby to her sitter & playgroup day.

Lucky me the sitter can’t make it to playgroup so I can relax and have breakfast..

Guess what sweet wonderful chewable issuable squeezable baby decides to fall back asleep??

You guessed it.. Mine..

I get her stuff ready to go.. I sit and have my coffee.. And do a little surfing online to try and make some money..

I look at the time and realize.. I gotta get going..

Crap.. The baby is still sleeping..

Crap.. She needs another diaper change..

Crap.. She wants to nurse before she goes..

Okay.. Time to go..

Crap.. Half way to where the sitter is going to meet me and I realized I forgot my uniform.. I have to turn around and get it..

I finally get the baby to her sitter and I left my darn bus pass in the stroller..

There goes my bus.. *bang head on mental wall while chasing down sitter*

And.. Miss another bus on the way back.. Third one doesn’t take me to work..

Now I am on bus number 4 & am gonna be late for work..

It must be Monday..

Help fight Hobophobia

TGIF! I work at a gov’t building so I don’t work weekends

A woman came over to my job today and asked for a chicken wrap.. She put a bunch of stuff on it then asked for some grilled zucchini and I told her we sold out half an hour earlier..

She walked away.. No food.. No money exchanged.. Nothing.. So I was left with a wrap that no one at work wanted..

Then I remembered a homeless guy that had the most awesome sign I have ever seen..

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I gave him the sandwich.. Then I took a picture of him and the sign.

I don’t think anyone reading my blog knows this.. But once upon a time.. I was homeless.. For about a year actually..

But I didn’t have to deal with the brutal cold winter that Ottawa gives.. I was on the west coast where the winters were cool & damp.. But snow didn’t last more than a month and the idea of wind chill factor was foreign..

I talked to the guy for a while.. He was really nice.. He accepted the wrap and had a really nice smile. I missed 3 buses giving him the food which of course made me late getting home.. Not really that bad though.

I went for a coffee date with a long time girlfriend I don’t see nearly enough of.. She is going to school now.. Something I wanted to do.. But we needed the money a little more urgently than my schooling..

If I ever get the early shift at work I will be making more money.. I will do home schooling then when we have some savings I will take the hairdressing course I have wanted to take most of my life..

For now.. I will settle for spending every afternoon and weekend with my girls and bringing in cash.. Grateful that I have a roof over my head.. Food in my stomach and love from so many wonderful people in much life..

Booty booty booty booty rockin’ everywhere!

What an inappropriate song to have stuck in my head.. I was singing it at work.. People were laughing.. I am glad my customers have a sense of humor.. I would be in a lot of trouble otherwise.. Haha It is a beautiful sunny day today.. I am going to take my girls to the park.. It has been cold and miserable lately.. Par for the course during this time of year so I am happy to find an Indian summer day.. I think I was being hit on at work today.. Though it is hard to tell with gov’t workers.. Never the less I mentioned I couldn’t wait for the weekend to spend time with my kids.. Hopefully puddle jumping.. The job has become easy.. Though it was so busy today I ran out of even the back up stuff for lunch and was making it on the fly. I am wondering if I still have bubbles.. It would be nice to bring them to the park with me. How do you make the best of a rainy weekend?

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