Why are you reading this? Scroll down for the good stuff.

Posts tagged ‘house’

Bikini Body Mommy 3.0 Day 0

Tomorrow is day one of my Bikini Body Mommy 3.0 adventure..

I fail miserably at these programs.. they are too strict.. they deprive too much.. they work you too hard.. they don’t work you hard enough..

I have decided to do BBM 3.0 and have accountability partners.. I’m actually running this BBM journey with a few online friends.. I’ll be the one posting the videos and asking for updates from the people who have joined me..

I am hoping that since they will be depending on me to keep them motivated, that it means I will stay motivated myself..

I have decided that I will not be following her meal plan.. I will take the supplements that she has suggested and do her work outs.. I will be increasing my water intake as well.. but I will eat what I like and practice moderation.

Bright at early tomorrow morning I will weigh myself for the first time in over a month.. which will be horrifying.. and I will post it publicly  which is even more horrifying..

I went though a depression for that month that I didn’t step on a scale.. and I am a comfort eater..so that doesn’t really bode well for me. I’m not sure what I weigh right now, but I can guarantee that it is more than 200 lbs so I am a bundle of nerves tonight because I know I will not be happy with what I see on the scale.

For now.. I will try not to let it get to me too much.. but seeing as I am writing about it.. it’s not easy to not think of.

I am not sure how regularly I will be posting about it here as I will be posting it in the womens group that I am in and posting it on Instagram.. But I will try to keep you updated.. My invisible reader.. who is so invisible that it doesn’t show in the stats that you have read my blog entries.

I get by with a little help from my friends

I love the Beatles.. and I love The Wonder Years..

But this isn’t about either.. this is about me actually needing help..

Ever since I got cut back from 50 hours a week down to 15 it’s been a struggle.. Rent going up again isn’t helping… With full time we barely made ends meet as it was pre-rent hike…

Here is where I use emotional black mail to lure you into donating to my site.

I have 2 kids to take care of..
wpid-20120916_170529.jpg

They are my everything.. I love them dearly and cannot afford where I live anymore..
My issue is that I can’t afford moving expenses either.. So I’m asking for your help..

I’m looking for donations to help us move into a new place. We’ve put in our 2 months notice and have to be out New Years Eve.

Before you start asking what I’m doing to help myself I’ll tell you..

– I work part time at a place that gives tips.. I have stopped spending the tips.. they are going to my moving costs..
– I do secret shopping on the side of my part time work and am saving that money as well.. sadly that only pays $3-5 a job and it costs me $3+ just to go out to said locations
– I do Avon as well to earn extra money but am still struggling to make a profit with that little endeavor.. I know a profit can be made.. I did avon once before and managed to make a profit from it back then.. I only stopped because I had 2 other jobs at the time and chose to quit avon.
– I am selling as much of my stuff as I can before the move.. clothes, electronics, craft supplies, artwork.. anything that isn’t nailed down.. and probably even some stuff that is..

But I have debts to pay off.. I’ve used my credit cards to make ends meet and need to pay those off AND pay for my moving expenses..

Once I live in a cheaper place I will be able to get back on track.. and who knows.. I might get a second part time job in the area I will move to..

Right now I’m spending $1800 a month on rent, hydro & transportation and only making $2200 a month, which leaves me with $400 a month for Groceries,¬†bills & emergency expenses.

I know that I can get a cheaper place, I’m currently looking at a place that is $1100 all inclusive. I’d be able to pay off my debts, save some money for the next move I end up doing, buy my kids nice things again and not kill myself trying to make ends meet for a little while.

As you can see, I have an actual plan to get back on my feet, this won’t be me every single week begging for a handout.

Please.. anything you could donate would be incredible I really would like to change my life and I believe this is the first step to doing so.

Just to make donating easier for you, my entire blog is a link to my donate page.

Thanks so much in advance, you have no idea how much your donation means to me.

Big Mama & family.
20140622_204719

Dear Rational Thought… I’m sorry

I am a rational person… I believe in science and ever growing knowledge through research, trial & error and a pure need to know the unknown. I have never been one to turn to the paranormal or religion to explain away things I don’t understand..

But there is one thing that I don’t understand.. And I am going to tell you about it right now. You can let me know your opinion good/bad/otherwise in the comments below:

I survived a house fire when I was 16.. 2nd, 3rd & borderline 4th degree burns all over my left leg & some 1st & 2nd on my right leg.

I woke up hearing my brother screaming at me to get up.. I mean screaming the panic in his voice shot me sitting straight up..

When I woke up I was surrounded by blackness & I couldn’t breathe… I looked down at my feet I saw the silhouette of flames around my feet.. Not the bright orange room with flames all around like you see in the movies. I didn’t know what to make of it at first.. until I realized.. it was a fire.. and I was sitting in it

I tore off the blankets, leapt off the bed and ran for the door. I collapsed right by my door and cried out in pain.. that is when my foster mom kicked the door in, grabbed me & dragged me out of the bedroom.

She told me to call 911 and evacuate the house while she tried to put the fire out. So I did.. I hopped downstairs and woke up the other foster kids and told them to get out of the house that it was on fire.

Went back upstairs and called 911 while my foster-siblings not believing me, followed me up the stairs to see what was going on. I told the operator to send a fire truck and they asked if we needed an ambulance and I kept saying “I don’t know if we do, mom they want to know if we meed an ambulance, I don’t know what to say”

She came into the kitchen and asked if my lungs hurt from smoke inhalation at all.. then looked down at my feet and realized that I had more than just smoke inhalation and took the phone out of my hand and told them to send an ambulance.

I stared at her but couldn’t focus on anything.. it was like I was watching her with tunnel vision.. apparently by this time shock was setting in because I was telling her I was alright and saying I just wanted to go back to bed.. I don’t remember that..

I remember being carried by fire fighters

I remember being asked if I knew where I lived.. a lot..

I remember them giving me T3’s when I got to the hospital..

I remember finding out I was allergic to Codeine that night as well when my skull hurt more than my legs did and my chest felt like it was imploding..

I remember being shoved down onto the hospital bed hard and a sharp pain in my thigh.. which I can only come to believe was epinephrine or adrenaline.

And I clearly remember hearing my brother screaming my name to wake me up and get me out of the house.. but the thing is.. he died 3 months earlier..

I would like to think of myself as a rational person.. but I honestly can’t explain why my brothers voice woke me up..

I am glad it did though because the firefighters & doctors said that judging by how bad my burns were.. I must have passed out from smoke inhalation at least once.

Question of the day:
What do you think really happened that night?

Back to afternoons

I am working both shifts now so my blogs will be in the afternoons again. I an going to miss my afternoon nap..

On the bright side I am getting more money for working fulltime hours so yay for house hunting money!

My baby turns 1 tomorrow she is growing too fast..then again so is my 11 year old..

My boss didn’t realize that I asked for the entire day off tomorrow and is frantically making phone calls to have someone covert my shift in the morning..

I hope he doesn’t ask me to work on my babies first birthday..

Sorry my blog isn’t more interesting.. I can’t concentrate because I am on a ton of pain. I need to nurse my baby like you wouldn’t believe..

Apparently Monday isn’t the only one to blame..

Today was filled with confusion as well..

Apparently I didn’t tell the sitter last night that I needed her for noon today not 10am..

Poor thing waited at our meeting place for 20 minutes with her baby.

I have good news! Well for me anyway.. The morning shift person wants to switch shifts after all.. Which is great!

But the sitter just started a month ago and now I will only need her maybe once a week now.. Which is a huge hour cut.. I feel sorta bad about that..

But I really want out of this bloody apartment building and saving on a sitter means savings in the bank for a house..

Or at least moving expenses to a townhouse.

I actually don’t think the shift switch was a genuine offer at first.. The woman I am switching with laughed when she asked me.. She laughed even harder when I said yes..

My boss has asked me 5X now if I plan on showing up for 6:30am.. Then seems surprised everytime I say yes.

I wonder if the morning shift girl thinks I am joking.. Am I going to show up and see her in uniform with a coffee in her hand and a surprised look on her face??

I guess I will find out tomorrow.

I wonder if the old guy is going to think I quit today.. Funny story.. He has been eyeballing me since I started here.. He hasn’t said more than good afternoon & his order to me though.

Today he finally gets the nerve to “ask me out”.. By ask me out I mean he said something to me about a religion he doesn’t follow then said he would like to take me sometime to see it.. In his car.. To the place with the religious thing.. Whenever I am not working..

Now I am going to be working the morning shift and will be long gone when he goes to get his usual lunch order..

How has your Tuesday been?

Tag Cloud