Tomorrow is day one of my Bikini Body Mommy 3.0 adventure..
I fail miserably at these programs.. they are too strict.. they deprive too much.. they work you too hard.. they don’t work you hard enough..
I have decided to do BBM 3.0 and have accountability partners.. I’m actually running this BBM journey with a few online friends.. I’ll be the one posting the videos and asking for updates from the people who have joined me..
I am hoping that since they will be depending on me to keep them motivated, that it means I will stay motivated myself..
I have decided that I will not be following her meal plan.. I will take the supplements that she has suggested and do her work outs.. I will be increasing my water intake as well.. but I will eat what I like and practice moderation.
Bright at early tomorrow morning I will weigh myself for the first time in over a month.. which will be horrifying.. and I will post it publicly which is even more horrifying..
I went though a depression for that month that I didn’t step on a scale.. and I am a comfort eater..so that doesn’t really bode well for me. I’m not sure what I weigh right now, but I can guarantee that it is more than 200 lbs so I am a bundle of nerves tonight because I know I will not be happy with what I see on the scale.
For now.. I will try not to let it get to me too much.. but seeing as I am writing about it.. it’s not easy to not think of.
I am not sure how regularly I will be posting about it here as I will be posting it in the womens group that I am in and posting it on Instagram.. But I will try to keep you updated.. My invisible reader.. who is so invisible that it doesn’t show in the stats that you have read my blog entries.
I gave my cat up to the SPCA today.. A sad occasion.. He is 3.5 year old orange tabby.
I have tried everything to get him to like the baby.. He just doesn’t like babies I guess..
So when faced with the choice of baby or cat.. The choice is pretty straight forward..
I said goodbye to mister jackolantern who refused to get out of his carrier for me. I have been switched to the morning shift so my shift now ends at 10:30am..
I will no longer be needing a regular sitter anymore.. Just an occasional one when my boyfriend opens the store.
We went grocery shopping hungry today.. Huge mistake.. We blew our budget right out of the sky.. Crashed it into the ocean and splattered it all along the oceans surface.. Then watched as it slowly sank to the bottom of the the deepest ocean canyon..
My boyfriend concurs with my statement..
So we ate afterwards.. And as I my lunch.. I began to think of all the unnecessary items we bought.. *shakes head* it is a good thing I got my last pay from my other job and am getting paid from my current job this Friday or we’d be 5 kinds of screwed..
I will be resuming afternoon nap with the baby now that I have a schedule that allows it.
For now.. I am signing off with a picture of my beloved Jackie.. And a hope that he will find a home that can give him all the love and attention he deserves..
TGIF! I work at a gov’t building so I don’t work weekends
A woman came over to my job today and asked for a chicken wrap.. She put a bunch of stuff on it then asked for some grilled zucchini and I told her we sold out half an hour earlier..
She walked away.. No food.. No money exchanged.. Nothing.. So I was left with a wrap that no one at work wanted..
Then I remembered a homeless guy that had the most awesome sign I have ever seen..
I gave him the sandwich.. Then I took a picture of him and the sign.
I don’t think anyone reading my blog knows this.. But once upon a time.. I was homeless.. For about a year actually..
But I didn’t have to deal with the brutal cold winter that Ottawa gives.. I was on the west coast where the winters were cool & damp.. But snow didn’t last more than a month and the idea of wind chill factor was foreign..
I talked to the guy for a while.. He was really nice.. He accepted the wrap and had a really nice smile. I missed 3 buses giving him the food which of course made me late getting home.. Not really that bad though.
I went for a coffee date with a long time girlfriend I don’t see nearly enough of.. She is going to school now.. Something I wanted to do.. But we needed the money a little more urgently than my schooling..
If I ever get the early shift at work I will be making more money.. I will do home schooling then when we have some savings I will take the hairdressing course I have wanted to take most of my life..
For now.. I will settle for spending every afternoon and weekend with my girls and bringing in cash.. Grateful that I have a roof over my head.. Food in my stomach and love from so many wonderful people in much life..
I dropped my baby off with her sitter today early so they could go to playgroup.. I can’t wait to see how it went. Hopefully she is napping right now as she usually takes 2-3 hour naps starting around 1:30pm..
Since I had some me time I decided to surprise my boyfriend with breakfast & his monstrosity of a drink which has so much sugar in it you could go into a diabetic coma at the smell of it.
I got myself a coffee and breakfast sandwich while I was there.. Then wolfed back the sandwich as fast as I could and guzzled the coffee as I was approaching work.. Feeling unjustifiably guilty..
You see I work at Treats.. Where they serve coffee and breakfast sandwiches.. And I bought my coffee & breakfast from Timothy’s.. So I felt like I was cheating on my own store.. Which I know is ridiculous there is nothing wrong with the breakfast or coffee where I work.. Timothy’s was just closer..
That darn rhinovirus is starting to go away so apparently there is a god.. Or.. My body realized I have an immune system.. Whichever is more plausible..
(I am an atheist ’nuff said)
I only forgot 2 minor details at work.. So my brain is defogging. After a crazy 3 days! I can feel my IQ rising woot..
Wait a minute.. Where did woot come from?
Scratch the IQ thing..
Tonight for dinner is Italian night. Spaghetti, garlic bread & tums! Yippee!
What is your favourite Italian dish?
I have a cold.. One that kept me up most of the night with sore sinuses and a stuffed nose.. My throat is in fire and I had to have a hot shower and hot soup to clear me enough to attempt to sleep..
It was a beautiful day out today which meant business was slow at work.. And now that I am off.. Of course it is raining..
Where was that when I needed it??
Oh well.. I did better today at work than I did yesterday.. I remembered more things.. Still needed to be reminded about a few obvious things.. But my co-workers seem to be very patient with me.
I must be doing something right.. They want me to fill a temporary fulltime shift from the 7th of November for 2 weeks..
It says: You aren’t screwing up so bad..
Rather than: ack we have no one.. Big mama can’t even get her lunch chores done on time!
So that makes me happy.. As does ye extra money I will be getting for it..
Fingers crossed that my boyfriend has closing shifts so we can make the hours worthwhile.
I can’t wait to get home and hold my baby in my arms.. I need to sit down and relax after the crazy day my body has been putting me through.
All I can think about right now is food.. It is breakfast for dinner tonight.. I am thinking pancakes & scrambled eggs.. Something quick and easy..
I have nothing interesting to add. Perhaps I will after dinnertime.
Question: What is your favourite Breakfast for dinner meal?
I feel like writing something.. I am not sure what.. But I know I want a blog published before I go to bed…
I am going grocery shopping tomorrow..
I would like to get back to meal planning.. Perhaps a little help with food themes would be nice..
I do Mexican Monday for a food theme..
The meals I make are:
Old El Paso Taco kit
Chicken quesadillas or
Taco ingredients on top of a bed of rice..
Needless to say.. My menu is lack luster..
Does anyone have any meal ideas or.. Better yet.. Recipes I can try out??