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Bikini Body Mommy 3.0 Day 0

Tomorrow is day one of my Bikini Body Mommy 3.0 adventure..

I fail miserably at these programs.. they are too strict.. they deprive too much.. they work you too hard.. they don’t work you hard enough..

I have decided to do BBM 3.0 and have accountability partners.. I’m actually running this BBM journey with a few online friends.. I’ll be the one posting the videos and asking for updates from the people who have joined me..

I am hoping that since they will be depending on me to keep them motivated, that it means I will stay motivated myself..

I have decided that I will not be following her meal plan.. I will take the supplements that she has suggested and do her work outs.. I will be increasing my water intake as well.. but I will eat what I like and practice moderation.

Bright at early tomorrow morning I will weigh myself for the first time in over a month.. which will be horrifying.. and I will post it publicly  which is even more horrifying..

I went though a depression for that month that I didn’t step on a scale.. and I am a comfort eater..so that doesn’t really bode well for me. I’m not sure what I weigh right now, but I can guarantee that it is more than 200 lbs so I am a bundle of nerves tonight because I know I will not be happy with what I see on the scale.

For now.. I will try not to let it get to me too much.. but seeing as I am writing about it.. it’s not easy to not think of.

I am not sure how regularly I will be posting about it here as I will be posting it in the womens group that I am in and posting it on Instagram.. But I will try to keep you updated.. My invisible reader.. who is so invisible that it doesn’t show in the stats that you have read my blog entries.

I get by with a little help from my friends

I love the Beatles.. and I love The Wonder Years..

But this isn’t about either.. this is about me actually needing help..

Ever since I got cut back from 50 hours a week down to 15 it’s been a struggle.. Rent going up again isn’t helping… With full time we barely made ends meet as it was pre-rent hike…

Here is where I use emotional black mail to lure you into donating to my site.

I have 2 kids to take care of..

They are my everything.. I love them dearly and cannot afford where I live anymore..
My issue is that I can’t afford moving expenses either.. So I’m asking for your help..

I’m looking for donations to help us move into a new place. We’ve put in our 2 months notice and have to be out New Years Eve.

Before you start asking what I’m doing to help myself I’ll tell you..

– I work part time at a place that gives tips.. I have stopped spending the tips.. they are going to my moving costs..
– I do secret shopping on the side of my part time work and am saving that money as well.. sadly that only pays $3-5 a job and it costs me $3+ just to go out to said locations
– I do Avon as well to earn extra money but am still struggling to make a profit with that little endeavor.. I know a profit can be made.. I did avon once before and managed to make a profit from it back then.. I only stopped because I had 2 other jobs at the time and chose to quit avon.
– I am selling as much of my stuff as I can before the move.. clothes, electronics, craft supplies, artwork.. anything that isn’t nailed down.. and probably even some stuff that is..

But I have debts to pay off.. I’ve used my credit cards to make ends meet and need to pay those off AND pay for my moving expenses..

Once I live in a cheaper place I will be able to get back on track.. and who knows.. I might get a second part time job in the area I will move to..

Right now I’m spending $1800 a month on rent, hydro & transportation and only making $2200 a month, which leaves me with $400 a month for Groceries,¬†bills & emergency expenses.

I know that I can get a cheaper place, I’m currently looking at a place that is $1100 all inclusive. I’d be able to pay off my debts, save some money for the next move I end up doing, buy my kids nice things again and not kill myself trying to make ends meet for a little while.

As you can see, I have an actual plan to get back on my feet, this won’t be me every single week begging for a handout.

Please.. anything you could donate would be incredible I really would like to change my life and I believe this is the first step to doing so.

Just to make donating easier for you, my entire blog is a link to my donate page.

Thanks so much in advance, you have no idea how much your donation means to me.

Big Mama & family.

A very late blog..

For the few readers I have acquired.. You know I blog pretty early in the day..

It is now 9:00pm and I am finally writing..

It has been a long and sleep deprived day.. I have been awake since 2am thanks to Hurricane Sandy & a light sleeping baby..

Who woke up to rattling windows and refused to go back to bed until 5:30am.. Which just happens to be the time I wake up to get ready for work..

So I have been up for 19 hours now and the baby.. Tho cranky.. Is showing no signs of being tired..

She also took a short nap today & when it was my time to laydown with her.. She woke up.. And wouldn’t go back to sleep.

Aaaaaaaaand.. I got 4.5 hours of sleep last night..


And the older one earned an early bedtime by yelling at me..

I told her to get ready for bed.. I knew she wasn’t..

She always “gets ready” then half an hour after she is supposed to be ready and turning off her lights.. She goes into the bathroom and spends half an hour in there “brushing her teeth & peeing”

So I asked her repeatedly.. Did you get ready for bed?


Are you sure you are ready for bed?


You brushed your teeth?


You have your pull up on?


Then she starts playing..

I tell her that it is bedtime not playtime.. That she should only be out of bed if she still needs to finish getting ready..

She says okay and doesn’t go to bed.. So I ask her again if she is ready.. Since she wasn’t making a move for the bed..

She yells at me: I AM ready for bed!

As she goes to start playing again..

You did NOT just yell at me.. Lights out.. Go to bed.. NOW..

“But I didn’t go pee!”

You must have.. You just told me 5 times that you were ready for bed.. You just yelled at me for asking you if you were sure.. Lights out.. NOW.. And you will get “THIS” back.. In the morning.. Removes play object from child’s hand

Suddenly I am the worst mom ever according to her.. To which I replied..

After the way you acted tonight.. You are lucky going to bed right now & losing a toy over night is all you are getting.. I suggest you keep your mouth shut unless you want to lose more..

Big mama needs a good nights rest.. O.o

How was your day?

So.. As it turns out.. I quit..

I worked a 9 hour shift today.. I talked to my boss again once I got to work.. I gave her the hours I wanted at work.. She counter offered.. And between our hours.. I found the numbers (with the help of my boyfriend) that I would be making $5 a week.. After I pay for my sitter.. Before bills, transportation etc.. Definitely not enough to keep working there…

Now that my 9 hour shift is over.. I am sore all over.. I am sore in places I didn’t know were capable of being sore..

I was glad to get home and nurse my baby.. My pump was chewed thru thanks to my jealous cat.. I really wish he got along with her..

On a good note.. I won’t ever be too full again since I will be working 4 hour shifts from now on..

It is kind of a relief knowing that I will be working less hours a day.. I will have more time with my kids


I won’t enjoy the New job as much, but I will be making money.. Now to figure out how to make an extra $200 a month..

Any suggestions?? I would love a suggestion or two.. Something realistic though.. No get rich quick schemes..

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