Tomorrow is day one of my Bikini Body Mommy 3.0 adventure..
I fail miserably at these programs.. they are too strict.. they deprive too much.. they work you too hard.. they don’t work you hard enough..
I have decided to do BBM 3.0 and have accountability partners.. I’m actually running this BBM journey with a few online friends.. I’ll be the one posting the videos and asking for updates from the people who have joined me..
I am hoping that since they will be depending on me to keep them motivated, that it means I will stay motivated myself..
I have decided that I will not be following her meal plan.. I will take the supplements that she has suggested and do her work outs.. I will be increasing my water intake as well.. but I will eat what I like and practice moderation.
Bright at early tomorrow morning I will weigh myself for the first time in over a month.. which will be horrifying.. and I will post it publicly which is even more horrifying..
I went though a depression for that month that I didn’t step on a scale.. and I am a comfort eater..so that doesn’t really bode well for me. I’m not sure what I weigh right now, but I can guarantee that it is more than 200 lbs so I am a bundle of nerves tonight because I know I will not be happy with what I see on the scale.
For now.. I will try not to let it get to me too much.. but seeing as I am writing about it.. it’s not easy to not think of.
I am not sure how regularly I will be posting about it here as I will be posting it in the womens group that I am in and posting it on Instagram.. But I will try to keep you updated.. My invisible reader.. who is so invisible that it doesn’t show in the stats that you have read my blog entries.
A little victory happened for me.. as you can tell by the title of my blog.. It was my first dietbet win.
Bigger news.. since August 30th I’ve lost a collective 9.5 inches!
Sad note.. 2 of those inches were in my breasts.. A sad day learning that indeed…
August 20th measurements:
Weight: 200+lbs Exact Weight Unknown
November 7th, 2014
I was super proud of my weight loss 3 days ago.. I finally reached a weight that was under 200lbs..
Sadly I’m back at 200.8lbs
I blame it on menstration.. what a horrible way to start a dietbet..
But I am determined to look at the upside..
THIS IS STILL LESS THAN I WEIGHED THE LAST TIME I WROTE A BLOG ABOUT MY WEIGHT
erm… or a dirty picture of Steve Carell… that works too..
Today I’ve started a new dietbet.. I submitted the weight in this morning and am waiting for it to be confirmed so they can tell me how much I need to lose.. because apparently I can’t do the math on my own… (8.1lbs in 4 weeks.. I did the math post coffee)
I have nothing intelligent to add after this so I am going to leave it at this.. before I put my foot in my mouth
It feels good to work half days again. I guess I have gotten used of the full days because I felt like I was missing something when I saw the clock and realized I had half an hour left of my shift.. I was making plans for my lunch break at 11.. Even though my shift ended at 10:30 ha ha ha
I got home.. Looked at the clock a half dozen times and finally.. Did something I haven’t done in weeks..
I took a nap with the baby..
Ahhhhh.. 2 blissful hours or rest & relaxation snuggled up to the sweetest 1 year old in the whole world..
Tomorrow is my birthday.. Part of me wants to be excited about it.. Another part of me knows it its going to be “just another day”..
Work, come home, nap with the baby, clean, cook dinner.. rinse & repeat..
I wish my birthdays were bigger deal.. Sadly I have been left in the background.. Perhaps that its my fault.. I could make a bigger deal out of it..
What do you do on your birthday?
They are my biggest comments.. I have been taking a sabbatical from writing lately because working fulltime & starting up nights with a cranky baby doesn’t make for good blogging material..
The baby got her 1 year immunizations and didn’t take to them as easily as she did her other shots.. 19 hour days and 5 hours of broken sleep has caught up with me.. I can’t wait for this week to end.. The extra money isn’t worth it..
My milk has depleted, my baby misses me & I am just plain exhausted..
Time to try out fenugreek.. I hear wonderful things about it.
What have you been up to since I have been away? Did you notice that I stopped writing?
I am working both shifts now so my blogs will be in the afternoons again. I an going to miss my afternoon nap..
On the bright side I am getting more money for working fulltime hours so yay for house hunting money!
My baby turns 1 tomorrow she is growing too fast..then again so is my 11 year old..
My boss didn’t realize that I asked for the entire day off tomorrow and is frantically making phone calls to have someone covert my shift in the morning..
I hope he doesn’t ask me to work on my babies first birthday..
Sorry my blog isn’t more interesting.. I can’t concentrate because I am on a ton of pain. I need to nurse my baby like you wouldn’t believe..
So the babes had fun trick or treating.. The cat went out twice and used a dumping bag part way through both..
Part way through the second trip she started complaining that she was trick or treating by herself.. I asked her if she wanted to just go home then.. She said no and her mood got considerably better..
That may have had something to do with my saying: If you aren’t having fun anymore it must mean you are done for the night and don’t want anymore free candy..
The cupcake fell asleep after the first run.. So she slept in the stroller as the kitty added a cape to the costume..
Ahhh yes.. The infamous batcat.. Nothing says Halloween quite like it..
We didn’t get home until 11pm.. Quite the night.. The 11 year old had a serious sugar crash and was out like a light in less than 5 minutes of her head hitting the pillow..
I myself went to sleep pretty quickly.. The baby quietly played beside me until she eventually did her nightly faceplant into the mattress for her traditional sleeping with her little diaper bum in the air..
So friggen cute..
I would like to say that everything has been smooth sailing.. But I have been making all sorts of silly mistakes at work.. And yawning all morning.. Thank goodness it was a slow morning at work.. I don’t know what I would have done otherwise.
The baby and I are going to have a siesta(spelling?) Even if she doesn’t fall asleep.. I will at least get some rest before the rest of the day bombards me..