Tomorrow is day one of my Bikini Body Mommy 3.0 adventure..
I fail miserably at these programs.. they are too strict.. they deprive too much.. they work you too hard.. they don’t work you hard enough..
I have decided to do BBM 3.0 and have accountability partners.. I’m actually running this BBM journey with a few online friends.. I’ll be the one posting the videos and asking for updates from the people who have joined me..
I am hoping that since they will be depending on me to keep them motivated, that it means I will stay motivated myself..
I have decided that I will not be following her meal plan.. I will take the supplements that she has suggested and do her work outs.. I will be increasing my water intake as well.. but I will eat what I like and practice moderation.
Bright at early tomorrow morning I will weigh myself for the first time in over a month.. which will be horrifying.. and I will post it publicly which is even more horrifying..
I went though a depression for that month that I didn’t step on a scale.. and I am a comfort eater..so that doesn’t really bode well for me. I’m not sure what I weigh right now, but I can guarantee that it is more than 200 lbs so I am a bundle of nerves tonight because I know I will not be happy with what I see on the scale.
For now.. I will try not to let it get to me too much.. but seeing as I am writing about it.. it’s not easy to not think of.
I am not sure how regularly I will be posting about it here as I will be posting it in the womens group that I am in and posting it on Instagram.. But I will try to keep you updated.. My invisible reader.. who is so invisible that it doesn’t show in the stats that you have read my blog entries.
A little victory happened for me.. as you can tell by the title of my blog.. It was my first dietbet win.
Bigger news.. since August 30th I’ve lost a collective 9.5 inches!
Sad note.. 2 of those inches were in my breasts.. A sad day learning that indeed…
August 20th measurements:
Weight: 200+lbs Exact Weight Unknown
November 7th, 2014
I was super proud of my weight loss 3 days ago.. I finally reached a weight that was under 200lbs..
Sadly I’m back at 200.8lbs
I blame it on menstration.. what a horrible way to start a dietbet..
But I am determined to look at the upside..
THIS IS STILL LESS THAN I WEIGHED THE LAST TIME I WROTE A BLOG ABOUT MY WEIGHT
erm… or a dirty picture of Steve Carell… that works too..
Today I’ve started a new dietbet.. I submitted the weight in this morning and am waiting for it to be confirmed so they can tell me how much I need to lose.. because apparently I can’t do the math on my own… (8.1lbs in 4 weeks.. I did the math post coffee)
I have nothing intelligent to add after this so I am going to leave it at this.. before I put my foot in my mouth
It feels good to work half days again. I guess I have gotten used of the full days because I felt like I was missing something when I saw the clock and realized I had half an hour left of my shift.. I was making plans for my lunch break at 11.. Even though my shift ended at 10:30 ha ha ha
I got home.. Looked at the clock a half dozen times and finally.. Did something I haven’t done in weeks..
I took a nap with the baby..
Ahhhhh.. 2 blissful hours or rest & relaxation snuggled up to the sweetest 1 year old in the whole world..
Tomorrow is my birthday.. Part of me wants to be excited about it.. Another part of me knows it its going to be “just another day”..
Work, come home, nap with the baby, clean, cook dinner.. rinse & repeat..
I wish my birthdays were bigger deal.. Sadly I have been left in the background.. Perhaps that its my fault.. I could make a bigger deal out of it..
What do you do on your birthday?
They are my biggest comments.. I have been taking a sabbatical from writing lately because working fulltime & starting up nights with a cranky baby doesn’t make for good blogging material..
The baby got her 1 year immunizations and didn’t take to them as easily as she did her other shots.. 19 hour days and 5 hours of broken sleep has caught up with me.. I can’t wait for this week to end.. The extra money isn’t worth it..
My milk has depleted, my baby misses me & I am just plain exhausted..
Time to try out fenugreek.. I hear wonderful things about it.
What have you been up to since I have been away? Did you notice that I stopped writing?
I am working both shifts now so my blogs will be in the afternoons again. I an going to miss my afternoon nap..
On the bright side I am getting more money for working fulltime hours so yay for house hunting money!
My baby turns 1 tomorrow she is growing too fast..then again so is my 11 year old..
My boss didn’t realize that I asked for the entire day off tomorrow and is frantically making phone calls to have someone covert my shift in the morning..
I hope he doesn’t ask me to work on my babies first birthday..
Sorry my blog isn’t more interesting.. I can’t concentrate because I am on a ton of pain. I need to nurse my baby like you wouldn’t believe..
So the babes had fun trick or treating.. The cat went out twice and used a dumping bag part way through both..
Part way through the second trip she started complaining that she was trick or treating by herself.. I asked her if she wanted to just go home then.. She said no and her mood got considerably better..
That may have had something to do with my saying: If you aren’t having fun anymore it must mean you are done for the night and don’t want anymore free candy..
The cupcake fell asleep after the first run.. So she slept in the stroller as the kitty added a cape to the costume..
Ahhh yes.. The infamous batcat.. Nothing says Halloween quite like it..
We didn’t get home until 11pm.. Quite the night.. The 11 year old had a serious sugar crash and was out like a light in less than 5 minutes of her head hitting the pillow..
I myself went to sleep pretty quickly.. The baby quietly played beside me until she eventually did her nightly faceplant into the mattress for her traditional sleeping with her little diaper bum in the air..
So friggen cute..
I would like to say that everything has been smooth sailing.. But I have been making all sorts of silly mistakes at work.. And yawning all morning.. Thank goodness it was a slow morning at work.. I don’t know what I would have done otherwise.
The baby and I are going to have a siesta(spelling?) Even if she doesn’t fall asleep.. I will at least get some rest before the rest of the day bombards me..
Woke up at 5am to nurse the baby before work.
I haven’t stopped running since.. O.o
Worked until 10:30
Picked up the baby
Came home to change her and eat a quick bite
Went to the grocery store and did price matching shopping.. WHICH by the way is a lot more time consuming than regular shopping
In the end it was worth it though.. I got $100 worth of groceries for $60..
And to think.. That was without coupons.. Wow.. If I had the energy for coupons AND price matching I would save so much money.. I see why people with the time & savvy do this..
I am exhausted though.. Perhaps next time I bring my boyfriend to help carry it and bring the baby home..
Juggling her stroller, the groceries & the diaper bag was a bit much for someone awake and on her feet for 9 hours previous..
Well.. Time to relax before making dinner..
Do you coupon? Any tips on how to make it easier?
I gave my cat up to the SPCA today.. A sad occasion.. He is 3.5 year old orange tabby.
I have tried everything to get him to like the baby.. He just doesn’t like babies I guess..
So when faced with the choice of baby or cat.. The choice is pretty straight forward..
I said goodbye to mister jackolantern who refused to get out of his carrier for me. I have been switched to the morning shift so my shift now ends at 10:30am..
I will no longer be needing a regular sitter anymore.. Just an occasional one when my boyfriend opens the store.
We went grocery shopping hungry today.. Huge mistake.. We blew our budget right out of the sky.. Crashed it into the ocean and splattered it all along the oceans surface.. Then watched as it slowly sank to the bottom of the the deepest ocean canyon..
My boyfriend concurs with my statement..
So we ate afterwards.. And as I my lunch.. I began to think of all the unnecessary items we bought.. *shakes head* it is a good thing I got my last pay from my other job and am getting paid from my current job this Friday or we’d be 5 kinds of screwed..
I will be resuming afternoon nap with the baby now that I have a schedule that allows it.
For now.. I am signing off with a picture of my beloved Jackie.. And a hope that he will find a home that can give him all the love and attention he deserves..
My 11 year old is so independent.. She has always found a way to look at the bright side.. She didn’t do her laundry over the weekend so I told her to put her laundry in the wash when she got home last night & I would put it in the dryer when she was in bed.
I was still making dinner because it was my first time making cabbage rolls.. Not realizing that it was an all day meal..
I was also dealing with a
So I had a hot bath to try working out the ache..
And the baby was very clingy because as dictates childhood.. She is suffering from separation anxiety.. She has been more and more clingy as she has realized that mommy working is going to be a regular thing.
While I was in the bath I kept imagining a Wolf spider crawling out of my overflow drain.. Then when I stopped seeing that I saw Elans stuffed bird eating spider doing the same..
I freaked out and leapt out of the tub.. Wondering how a 30 year old woman still let her imagination get the better of her.
Anyway.. With all of that I forgot my older girls clothes.. I realized that when I was sleeping this morning and stirred a little when I heard the shower going.
My sweet.. Independent.. Chipper girl.. Went downstairs with the laundry card.. Switched the laundry herself.. Came up.. Got everything else ready for school while she waited for her clothes..
And when I apologized for not putting her clothes in the dryer.. She apologized for not telling me she did this morning but she as in the shower..
This morning could have gone sooooo much worse..
I really do have the best daughters in the world..
Now I feel like such a bad mom.. 😛